You are entirely responsible for cutting through your own laziness, addictions, and unclarity. There is nothing to wait for and nobody to blame.
Whatever techniques are appropriate use them: Talk with your friends, use therapy, practice meditation or prayer, go on a VisionQuest, go on a hike, read a book, read scripture, walk in nature, keep a journal, study with the teacher. It really doesn’t matter what you choose, what matters is your actual commitment to discovering the deepest truth and aligning your life with it.
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