If we train ourselves to reach for a snack or pick up the phone to text or look at Instagram whenever we feel frightened or bored (yes, this is definitely training), then the next time we feel uncomfortable we will also likely reach for some comfort outside ourselves, eventually establishing a deeply ingrained habit, another brick in the wall of our mental prison.
Are we in training to distract ourselves from inner discomfort or anxiety? Are we in training to numb ourselves in the face of fear? Or are we in training to wake up? Training in opening the heart, or training in shutting it down?
This is what we notice when we simply sit quietly with ourselves for even a few moments: we experience the accumulated momentum of mental noise, booming and buzzing. We notice how strongly we are trained to want something different from what actually is happening. We notice that our minds are very well trained in dissatisfaction and distraction. Almost always our focus is on something else—not this. We seek another moment of greater happiness— not this moment. Contentment seems always elsewhere—never here.
We must restructure our training. We must train to be here. To not run form this moment of “nothingness”. That is the only way we tear down the self imposed wall instead of building it.
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